In the chorus, Halsey describes everything as the color "blue". The color blue itself represents freedom and uncharted territory in the world and in the heavens; blue represents the color of the sky and seas. At the beginning of the chorus, Halsey writes, "Everything is blue, his pills, his hands, his jeans", this shows her emotions towards Matthew and how in him she finds innocence and feels at peace. Although she feels at peace when she writes with Matthew, "And now I'm covered in colors torn at the seams," this demonstrates how Halsey's deep infatuation with Matthew grows and his "colors" cover and fill her life, provoking it itself. -destruction, or having one's soul torn apart at the seams. Halsey uses color representation throughout her song describing Matthew and his emotions by using the color blue throughout most of the chorus, then she moves on to describe him as gray, "Everything is gray. His hair, his smoke, his dreams And now he's so devoid of color, he doesn't know what that means At this point, she realizes how sad Matthew's life and all aspects of it, including his group, are; "devoid of color", she still finds innocence in Matthew The "relationship" between Halsey and Matthew continued through an infatuation of Halsey wanting to love someone who simply did not have a loving, defiant demeanor. his own self-destruction through his destructive behavior.