For years, Julienne prayed feverishly for the three wounds, and finally she received one of the three wounds. Julian became extremely ill, and Julian's community and Julian herself began to prepare for his death. In Grace M. Jantzen's book, Julian of Norwich: Mystic and Theologian, it is said that Julian received the last rites of the Church and that his health subsequently deteriorated increasingly. Julian of Norwich: Mystic and Theologian also explains how Julian's experience parallels that of Jesus, regarding Christ's passion. Just as Jesus suffered for three days, so did Julian. Throughout her suffering, she prayed that “not his will, but thine be done,” which is also similar to Jesus. However, unlike Jesus, in what seemed to be her final hours, a priest came and held a crucifix up to her gaze, so that she could gaze upon the crucifix before joining God. In these moments, Julien prayed to live the passion of Christ. Soon after, Julian began to have visions of Christ in three forms. Julian's manifestations, while not completely credible within the Church, shaped the way Julian viewed God in his life. Julian said this about the