Frank E. Pouliot's statement regarding change as a "process of personal evolution" embraces change in a positive way. To me, this means that if we don't change, we don't mature. I recognize that change is not easy. Whether our behaviors are positive or negative, we accept them. It’s this comfort that makes change difficult. Changing familiar behaviors is almost like losing a friend. Except that most of us don't have the exact same friends our entire lives. We move away, our life circumstances change, etc. If we didn't change, we wouldn't grow. The ability to self-evaluate and step back to examine our role in a situation comes from emotional maturity. In cases of addiction, the addict may not have learned these skills. In cases where a person feels dissociated from the outside world, they may experience a feeling of helplessness. He may feel like he can't control anything, so he clings to his familiar behavior patterns, using them as a security blanket. The other day, on my way to work, I was deep in thought, trying to think of something in my life that I could change myself for this mission. I looked at the clock and thought that today I would only be about ten minutes late for work. I'm constantly late for everything. Even if I wake up two hours early, or if I have to be somewhere in the afternoon and oversleeping has absolutely nothing to do with it, I'm late. There is a certain adrenaline rush that comes from this delay cycle. When I arrived at work, I said hello and took a quick glance at the clock. Only eight minutes. Not too bad. I work at a bakery, but my schedule isn't like the guy at Dunkin' Donuts. I don't need to wake up... in the middle of a newspaper... on the weekends to get myself out of bed. Since this won't be an easy habit to break, there's a good chance I'll slip and hit the snooze button. I'm thinking of using this horrible alarm clock without a snooze button. This alarm clock features Tigger (from Whinnie the Pooh) and he shouts, "Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo!" Are you ready to bounce back? » Then he makes spring noises. Then the whole horrible thing repeats until you press the button. It's such a nauseating experience to hear this, I'm going to have to get out of bed to make it stop. So my plan is to use this to get myself out of bed. If I slip up, I'll just find where I need to change something and start again. Once I have a month of punctuality, I will know that I have established a new pattern because I have never been on time for more than two days in a row..